Cry of the Elephants

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For my second double mirror gazing experience with Raymond Moody, he chose a travel narrative piece of nonsense (which is self-explanatory as it conveys a sense of traveling) to carry us over the threshold and into the mirror. We decided we would have no particular agenda for this trip; we would just see what happened.

Again, piggy backing off Raymond’s considerable experience and energy for this work, I easily entered, or more accurately, was absorbed by the mirror and found myself nose to trunk with a giant and old elephant.

“I will take you through the nephesh,” he told me. “You’ll be safe with me.” He picked me up and placed me gently upon his back. I should explain for those not familiar with the Kabbalah, nephesh refers to the level of soul related to the lower astral and the sephira Yesod. It is also known as the animal soul. There are four or five levels of soul in the Kabbalah depending on the school of thought one follows. The nephesh can be the most problematic as it encompasses the more primitive aspects of man and animal.

We traveled deep into the jungle until we entered a clearing. Here I saw the whole family of this ancient elephant gathered in a circle around a dead bull lying in the center upon the ground.

“Please grieve with us,” the lead elephant asked. “We know you are one whose task it is to feel what others cannot or will not. Grieve his death with us. Poachers killed him for his ivory tusks. We know you know how to grieve. Please help us to grieve his loss.”

I cried with them. Moaned and swayed my body in sync with them. Their trumpeting cries scored my heart with pain. When they felt their grieving complete, the lead elephant asked me to guide their dead brother across the threshold to the other side of life. Once again, he picked me up, and then gently placed me upon the back of the dead elephant whose soul now stood ready for his next journey.

Slowly together, we made our way to a bridge and crossed it. We went as far together as I was able to go, then he gently used his trunk to place me on the ground. He thanked me and made the rest of the journey on his own, as I turned, made my way back over the bridge, back into the nephesh and once more found the circle of elephants that was his family. They stood waiting for me.

“Please,” said the head elephant, “you have always known we have souls, we have emotions. You know that we grieve and mourn the loss of our loved ones just as you do. Some of your kind try to help us. They dye our tusks pink to render them useless to the poachers. Please tell them to do this more and more quickly or soon we will be no more.”

Initially after this mirror gazing experience, I thought it was unrelated to the first one and the others yet to come. Now, however, I understand the relationship and purpose of the experience and am humbled by it. What a blessing, what a gift, to cry with the elephants.

A Brief View of Mediumship

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(Continuing the test of brainwave entrainment, I am listening to Lambda frequency while writing this.)

Before I delve deeply into the work of Rudolf Steiner as a seeding and inspiration for the foundation of the Community of Spirits, I wish to share a bit with you about my beginning studies into Mental Mediumship.

From both Steiner and my Kabbalistic background, there are great proscriptions against the use of mediumship as a means of speaking with the dead. Blending one’s energy with the dead was considered black magic by Paul Foster Case, a great adept of the Hermetic Kabbalah. Steiner was very against all forms a physical mediumship as it is, to him, the height of materialism to demand that the spirit world conform to the physical world’s limitations. Also, any form of mediumship, such as deep trance, where one sets aside her conscious mind and allows the discarnate to take over, was considered very dangerous and not to be used. As I have great respect for both teachers, I entered my beginning exploration into mental mediumship very cautiously. Why explore it at all? Because I am an inquisitive person. I will conduct the experiment myself and come to my own conclusions. Is there anything of value that we can use from mental mediumship in our conversation with the dead? So…I am sort of a crash test dummy on all this which I will then report back to you for your consideration.

For the past 18 months or so, I have studied with and read many different books on mediumship. To be fair, 18 months is not a long time to develop the skills of a medium, if they can be developed at all by one such as me who makes no claims to innate abilities for mediumship. That very point is debated in the mediumship community quite a bit. Some believe anyone can develop a certain degree of proficiency while others insist you must be born a medium, they are not made. (Interestingly, one such medium has no problem offering classes in mediumship with no vetting process at all. You pay, you play.) I’ve also engaged several mediums for readings. I will not name names good or bad so I can speak freely about my experiences.

The readings I’ve received have ranged from abysmal, to strange, to pretty good, to startlingly good (though I have some reservations about that one). You see, one of the mediums that I think of very highly, whose knowledge, experience and integrity are to me of the highest caliber, and with whom I chose to mentor with for a while, assigned me to read a book by Lamar Keene, “Psychic Mafia,” as a cautionary tale. The book made me physically ill to read. The corruption of spirit, the vile betrayal of people in deep mourning, the outright thievery and at times prostitution of these so-called mediums casts such a dark shadow on the whole field, that it is hard for me to put much faith in 99% for what passes as mediumship. My apologies to those honest and true mediums but I am sure you can understand and even share my outrage.

One of the easiest ways to play fast and loose is to keep files on clients and share then among other mediums worldwide. My mentor insists that practice is still used today. Now add to that phone readings and the internet and quickly one can see how easy it is for any less the honest “medium” to have all kinds of information at his fingertips.

Nevertheless, I wanted to study this form of communication to see if I can develop any ability at all to talk to the dead at will. Along with the mentoring, I took several local workshops and online classes. Not bad. Then I took a very expensive class from one of the top mediums in the field today. It is a good class, though truly too expensive with all the kinks of a new endeavor to work out. One of the final assignments was to do a platform reading with total strangers. That was almost a deal breaker for me as I never intend to do readings for people of any kind let alone up on a stage with a group of people. You gotta be kidding, right? I almost gave up right there; my stomach was in so many knots. However, with the help and encouragement of a dear friend who offered to host a small group at her home, I went ahead with it.

Using most of the techniques suggested by this teacher, I actually was able to connect with the paternal grandfather of a gentleman in the group. I rattled off all kinds of info about this grandfather. When I finally lost the connection, I opened my eyes, expecting to see the man shaking his head “no” with pity in his eyes. Instead I saw a man shaking his head “yes” with tears in his eyes. I had in fact described his paternal grandfather almost perfectly and his coming through was especially meaningful as this man was going to India to meet with members of his paternal grandfather’s family he had not seen in years.

So, I can say even from my beginning experiments in mental mediumship, it is possible, with time and dedication, to develop some skill in communicating with the dead in this way. But still, I have reservations.

With the exception of one medium, everyone I have read or studied with personally insists that there is no possibility of connecting with any type of dark forces. They insist that there is only good in the spiritual world; evil is human made and “like attracts like.” That aligns with much of the New Age community’s thoughts on this. But the Kabbalah and Steiner (and heck even the bible) suggests otherwise; that assuming only Light in the spiritual world is naïve and dangerous. I tend to agree with that. As far as “like attracting like,” while our outward persona may be kind and congenial, none of us knows for certain what lurks in our subconscious…that’s why it called the subconscious. What little signals might we be putting out that we are totally unaware of? I speak lightly but truly, this is something to be very concerned about. So my caution may be a parting point for those of you who cannot conceive of the need to be wise as a serpent when venturing into the supersensible worlds. I will respect that and bide you adieu. I will not, as was suggested by the superstar medium, “blend” my energy with any and all discarnate beings that choose to enter my field.

Another problem I have with some of the mediums as well as other metaphysical teachers of intuition I have studied with is the idea of “power.” “Get into your power. Own your power. Feel your power. Power. Power. Power.” To say that to an uninitiated, possibly uneducated, unknown group, without clearly defining what they mean by that (if they know what they mean by that), to me is irresponsible. Those teachers will also bear the karma, the responsibility, for whatever happens to their students from acting upon that advice.

I’ve studied the Kabbalah too long and have done too many years of Jungian analysis to bandy about that admonition without being very, very clear where that Power originates and one’s proper alignment to it. All power originates with the Divine (in whatever way you define that). It is only when our small personality is completely subservient to the will of the Divine, that any Power may flow though us. It is not our power; we are merely conduits for it to flow. “Not my will but Thine be done,” or having the Ego/Self axis in proper relationship….the small self subservient to the Higher Self. Unfortunately, and I see this all over the place, people’s small selves, often referred to as “ego” (oh there’s another problem – we need a strong healthy ego to live in this world. Ego is not bad…but an unhealthy or damaged ego needs healing) becomes inflated (oh there’s those years of Jungian analysis again) feeling itself omnipotent. That can lead to all kinds of delusions and bad behavior…the wreckage of which I see strewn about the New Age community all the time. So I am very cautious around teachers’ who adjure their students to “Own their power,” without clearly defining where that Power comes from and one’s relationship to it.

As far as mental mediumship goes, I feel that for myself, I have studied enough and gathered together enough material, should I feel it needed, to develop my skills. Basically…I feel the energy for the study waning. There may be a place in the Community of Spirits for some of its techniques to be of use, I am not sure. And certainly those who are true mediums are welcome as part of our community. But I am now going to focus on Rudolf Steiner’s work for communicating with the dead. (There are some other interesting avenues I will also pursue and report on…but not just yet.) I’ve done my best to gather everything I can find that Steiner wrote or spoke about concerning the dead, our service to them, our work with them, together and have read them though at least once. New discoveries keep turning up and I add them to my study. Soon I will begin suggesting some reading for those interested and comment on what I’ve read.

Ultimately all this is a seeding of the subconscious field. I want to plant the best seeds then see what new, original work sprouts forth. Work that will take Steiner’s work forward into the 21st century but also evolve as it grows. I am sure he would want that.

The difference between this venture and the one I took with death midwifery is that you are watching the entire creative process, ragged seams and all unfold, and not presented with the shiny finished product of 18 years of work. It’s a far more vulnerable place for me, but I am guided to do this in this way now. Bear with me as we grow together.

(By the way, Lambda is far easier and kinder to write to than Epsilon. I highly recommend trying it.)